Tuesday, February 27, 2007

a wonderful woman


She's a Capable Mother.


She has sensitivity and a concerned character that led her to start Yayasan Cinta Anak Bangsa (YCAB). Her name is Veronica Colondam. The establishment of YCAB as an anti drug foundation that campaigns for prevention was not easy and the journey was at time long and arduous. Currently, YCAB is developing its knowledge and improving its methods. This non profit foundation was established on the 13th of August 1999 and it has since then developed methods to save the youth of the nation from drug abuse. By accessing a variety of sources both local and international and by tapping into fresh ingenuity and initiative, YCAB has established effective concepts and ideas. "YCAB establishment was born out of my deep concern over the circulation of drugs in Indonesia that has escalated recently. Like any other mother, I was anxious over the prospect of my own children growing up in this kind of environment. I then realized that there was something I could do for my children and for Indonesia's youth" she said. And now, as it enters its fourth year, YCAB has become well-known both locally and internationally and it has received recognition for its efforts in drug prevention. For her efforts, the United Nations awarded Veronica, the 3rd United Nations-Vienna Civil Society Award in Vienna December 2001.

i am very fortunate to know her. for me, she is inspirational. she does not talk much but takes action. her rare quality is what this country needs more of. beauty inside out.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

the end

if you only knew.
you were the last.
if you only believed.
i would have lived.

the biggest conspiracy in the world

One day when I was watching Oprah in an episode about Kristin Armstrong's (Lance Armstrong's ex wife) new book "Happily ever after". A story about her marriage and divorce with Lance and her struggle to find her true self back. In their conversation, Oprah mentioned that, "when you come to think about it, the biggest conspiracy in the world is marriage". No one ever, not even our mothers, sisters or best friends would ever spill on what really happens after the wedding day. More often, they will start saying, "Marriage is hard work" only after we are married and discovers problem and goes to them to find answers or their secrets for a happy marriage. Well, finally they all will say and admit the truth of what happened after the wedding day. Now I know why even in fairy tales everything stops after the VO says, "and they live happily ever after" - THE END. That's how Cinderella, Snow White ends their story. So, what happened with prince charming? It's a mystery...but I don't think the charming is ever after. Hhhmmm...
Well, I'm not the expert in marriage. But one thing I know is that are no science, logic, or anything that will ensure that you have a fairy tale marriage. You know why? Because you are marrying a human being. Humans are humans. There is no logic to it. We are different and unique. Each one of us. So, I don't even think you should buy any self help books, as they won't be relevant to you. You will end up experiencing all the opposite. Because no matter how perfect you choose your couple, at the end of the day, it's about whether you can appreciate her/him and not seduced by your neighbours greener lawn. And human nature has always been envy, even after you actually have the best.
I can say this with confident and actually believed in what I've said, because I had experienced it. When I was younger till a few months before my wedding day, all of my relationships was hurtful. I was always madly head over heels in love and always dumped at the end. It was terrible. So, based on my experienced, I closed shop my heart and used logic for a husband. I noted the things I hated during my relationships and made sure that all things that can caused it will be thrown out the window. The first was my feeling. I did not want to love as I don't want to feel the pain of insecurity, of waiting for your lover to come home, etc. So I had to have a husband that loves me more. I also needed someone that is far different than me so I will always find him interesting as we come from different background.
Bla, bla, bla...I got what I want and I married him.
Fast forward now, 7 years after our marriage and I am here miserable, unhappy and lonely. Do you know why? Not loving someone is actually really tiring, especially when you have to live with them. Too nice is boring. Now we don't communicate with each other at all. What we have in common is only our son. I am emotionally abused and trapped in this marriage because he is the perfect father. I have to think of my son now more then myself. His well being and happiness is priority. I can't say I'm a good mother as I am the bread provider of the family. I have less time to spend with him. I am exhausted and I need someone to save me. My knight in shining armour.
Marriage. It's an illusion. It's a conspiracy. It's the biggest one. I know as I'm in it now.
If you love someone, you might lose yourself. If you don't love someone, you'll be empty. A question I asked everyday, "will I find my soul mate?", "is there even such thing as a soul mate?", "will I be given a chance to be in a loving relationship?", "will I find my love", "will I find someone who wants to die for me?", "is this only happening to me?"...so many questions unanswered.
Do you know?

Saturday, February 24, 2007

"every person is special...




...you just have to know how and what to look for."


I never really ever try to find inspiration. Never looked for it either. It always came without announcement. Always a happy surprise, though. But once you're inspired, you just can't stop creating, doing good, helping others, writing, and the list goes on and on until a dead end. Sometimes but most of the time, inspiration leads us to inspire other people too. I guess God created this life cycle to make humans dependent on each other. For all the excitement - peace, love, war, knowledge, etc.


I learned most of the magic and beauty of life from my friends. That is why I cherish them the most. My friends are my heroes. They are whom I look up to.




He was a hero way before I even understood that heroes do really exist in this world. I only knew of Superman, Wonderwoman, Batman. He gave up his childhood, life to fight in the name of Indonesia in sport. Because of him, our nations anthem was heard in foreign countries. The world got a chance to see our flag "red & white". Isn't it fantastic.

But have you ever asked where he is now? Have you ever wonder? Have you ever thanked him? Or have you forgotten him and people like him? Would you want to give up your life to serve and be forgotten?

"I don't" that's my answer. He is a legend and will always be, even after life. If not to you, for sure to me.

* "Legenda" a song by Sheila Madjid



Prince Harry to be deployed to Irac

Third in line to British throne could be first royal to see combat in 25 years

Prince Harry ordered to Iraq Feb. 22: For the first time in 25 years, a member of Britain's royal family may fight for his country. NBC's Dawna Friesen reports from London.

LONDON - Prince Harry, third in line to the British throne, will be deployed to Iraq, the Ministry of Defense said Thursday.
His regiment, the Blues and Royals, is expected to deploy to Iraq this spring, and he could become the first royal to see combat since his uncle, Prince Andrew, served in the Falklands war against Argentina in 1982.
Harry — a second lieutenant — has expressed his desire to serve alongside his comrades in Iraq, saying that there was “no way” he was going to undergo rigorous training and then stay away from the battlefield. He graduated last year from Royal Military Academy at Sandhurst.

Britain’s Ministry of Defense has previously said that Harry could be kept out of situations where his presence could jeopardize his comrades.
The 22-year-old prince, known as Troop Commander Wales by his regiment, has trained to command 11 soldiers and four Scimitar tanks.
In joining the military, Harry followed a royal tradition: his father, Prince Charles, was a pilot with the Royal Air Force and Royal Navy and a ship commander, and Harry’s grandfather, Prince Philip, had a distinguished career in the Royal Navy during World War II.
On Wednesday, Prime Minister Tony Blair announced that Britain would be reducing its commitment in Iraq, withdrawing 1,600 soldiers in the next few months.

© 2007 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.

Even a prince wants to find self actualization. He refused to be told what he can and cannot do. He knows who he is and he wants to live his "own" life. He is only third in line of the throne. A slim chance to be King, yet a fat chance to be a hero. Long live the prince..* he's just in my mind all day.

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Friday, February 23, 2007

Thursday, February 22, 2007

courage. no reply.

my email to Asia 21 after reading this email and lunch meeting with Meutya Hafid at Hotel Mulia Senayan 16 February 2007.




Dear Jamie and friends at Asia 21 network,

First of all, on behalf of the Indonesian team, I would like to thank the whole Asia 21 network for your kind attention and concern for the well being of Indonesia. It really gave us hope.

On this opportunity, I would like to update you on what has been done, planned and what kind of help we need to overcoming the flood disaster, short term, mid term and long term in Jakarta or anywhere prone to it in Indonesia.

After gathering data and intensive discussions with the government, local authorities, city planning experts, media, NGO’s and various private sectors, we have identified the following:

Short term problems such as food, shelters, medications, sanitation has been and is being taken care of by the government, private sectors and NGO’s. Our friends from the neighboring countries have lent a hand by providing food and medicines. Doctors from various universities around the nation have come to Jakarta to provide free health check up for people affected by the floods and surrounding, especially in the shelters. Now, as the floods are “on and off” draining, more doctors have come to anticipate the aftermath. Basically, as difficult as it seems, up till now, the nation is still able to handle the short term solution.

Medium term solution is to encourage that all houses and buildings must have a “rain water observance well/ground water well” (I don’t know the correct English term for “sumur resapan”). If all houses/buildings in Jakarta have this well, it will not only decrease the floods during rainy season (as it is absorb by the ground first before it goes through the sewage), it will also help the people against deficit of water during dry season. In long term, it will also stabilize the land condition of Jakarta. Prevent decrease of ground volume.
(See picture attached)


Long term solution on paper/plan, the government has. Last week, we have met Marco Kusumawijaya, an expert in city planning (independent/non-government) shared with us some information on why the government plan has not yet been executed. As fantastic it is on paper, the situation on the ground is totally the opposite. The governments plan in summary are as follows:

Maximize the function of 13 rivers that flows through Jakarta, by:
i. Cleaning garbage and temporary houses
ii. Secure area for public service. Relocate homes to another location or
compensation
iii. Strict construction policy and law
Construction of the east canal

The governments plan will be good if it all is understood and supported by the people. The main problem for the government is actually the relocating of residential houses and the cleaning of the temporary houses built on the side of the rivers that cause the blockage. The government’s poor track record in similar activity in the past adds in to the already difficult situation.

After the discussion, we identified what Asia 21- Indonesia can help within our capacity and capabilities (hopefully, with guidance and help from the network). The plan is as follows:

PUBLIC SERVICE CAMPAIGN
Objective: To change attitude
a. Education/Socialization campaign for the importance of building the “ground water well” in every house
and how to build it
b. Education/Socialization and Persuasion campaign on the importance of maximum function of the river
Strategy:
a. To launch an integrated communications campaign
b. Targeted to:
Primary:
- General public
- People living in the “restricted area”
- Schools
- Community leaders
- Media
Secondary:
- Government
- Corporate (fundraising, good governance)
c. Supported with communications material that is simple, visual and easy to understand
d. That clearly define the reason why and the how to
e. Utilizing medium most commonly used by the target audience
f. The communications campaign will be executed as follows:
- Face to face education/socialization in communities, schools, restricted areas, etc.
- Advertising: TVC, print, outdoor, advertorial, radio
- Public Service Ad in format, can be endorsed by public figure/celebrities
g. Public Relations:
- Press briefing and workshop, Editorial
- Education/Socialization at community centers, schools, etc. è poster, flyer's è why and how
- Radio talk show, announcements, etc.
h. Educational short movie by Riri Riza (Indonesia’s young film director)

The next step, after we all have agreed with the plan on how we can help, we will structure the cost and run a fundraising activity to fund the campaign. It is important that this educational campaign is done not via the government but independent, as to ensure maximize use of funds in order to achieve maximum impact.

Jamie, we are open and will appreciate if you or anyone within the network can give us an input or additional ideas or case studies on successful similar activities for additional learning’s or anything relevant that can help in any way.


Great idea they said. Great initiative they said. But no input nor reply from anybody in the network. Sad but true. I really want to do something. I really want to bring Asia 21 to life. But a network is a network, like a society is a society. An individual can't make up a society, but she can make the first step. The first initiative. To bring the society alive.

sucked out

Have you ever felt like your energy are being sucked out of your entire body? Today I felt it. I couldn't think, no mood, no nothing. I didn't cry, I didn't laugh either. To many disappointments, I guess. One after another.
It started with a weird feeling of sadness in the beginning of the week. When I was on the way to work on Monday, suddenly in front of Kartika Chandra jl. Gatot Subroto, J's memories came back to haunt me. I felt like he was actually near me, saying something that I couldn't understand but I know I automatically felt sad. I missed him again after 2 years apart. Once I sat on my desk, opened my laptop...and an msn appeared. The message made me feel numb. I'm neither sad nor angry nor happy. I wanted to cry but couldn't. So, you're finally getting married. So fast so little time. I couldn't believe that my wish just didn't come true. You and me finally together, living happy ever after till death do us part. Our story, the end. Half of me, my soul, gone.
Yesterday, a hunched that was true reality. My eyes may be weak but my ears and nose are functioning beyond its capacity. I heard a familiar voice in the next room. Questions came into my head..."Is it really her?"..."Interview or freelance?"...a phone call and no answer. She called back. She denied. She lied. But she finally confessed. "It was an interview"..."I want it now", she said. Disappointed I am to know that our efforts meant nothing to a person we cared enough for us to fight and kill ourselves to always give her what makes her happy. Having a dream and to follow it to achieve it, is not wrong. It's great. But in life, whatever you do, you have to do it the right way. The simplest rule is to appreciate and respect other people, especially the one that has helped you. Ethics is key. Don't think to highly of yourself. Don't learn from the wrong people, the wrong source.
I took this quote from a fellow Asia 21, Bam Aquino:
"Self actualization to giving up yourself."
You actually find yourself when you give yourself to others and you’ll become a better person by denying yourself.
Bam also said the following about public service which I think applies to everything we do in life. Ego is not for this lifetime.
"Courage. We have to be courageous enough to follow...and make it work. Second is integrity. Because we need more people who have integrity who would not be bought by power or money. Third is diligence. Because nothing comes easy that is why we have to work hard. Fourth is humility. Be humble enough to know when you’re wrong. Be humble enough when things have to change. But most of all, be humble enough as there are people who also want to help. "

All the effort, all the emotional tantrum, all the fight. I placed my passion to you. A wise man believed in you and went his way to lobby for you to get what you want. "Is being honest not good enough?" "Do you really prefer sweet words of lies and over promises?". As passionate I was to support your dream and passion. As passionate also I am now, not to acknowledge your existences. Not exact God's words (but more or less) "the value of reward equals to the value of good deeds done" "besarnya rezeki bergantung pada besarnya pahala yang kita lakukan"

I'm tired. I will now switch the focus of my energy somewhere else. You have found your way. Good luck on your journey. My pain, my gain as I am happy once more.

Friday, February 9, 2007

george, I am proud of you.


George, someone I use to date a long time ago. He was not only that but also my best friends big brother. I have known him since my high school years but we only became close after college. We started our relationship after his car accident in Lucern. He was in coma and couldn't walk for almost a year. Due to trauma, no one in the family allowed him to recover. They were over protective which made him afraid to step back into the real world.

I came into his life and changed everything. Everyday I'd encourage him to lose the wheel chair and walk. I told him that my dream was to walk with him to a fine dining restaurant, dance, walk in the mall, watch movies and travel the world. Everyday I can see him try harder and harder. From losing the wheel chair until he was able to drive again and finally walk on his own.

Of course soon after he is well, he went back to school in Den Haag. I visited him once but we broke up not long after that. Long distance relationship is not my thing.

Since the breakup, George was just another "jerk" ex-boyfriend. He was a spoiled brat. He got married and so did I.

Not long ago George divorced his wife to live with another woman. I was angry at the way he treated his wife. No respect at all. He was frank about his relationship with the other woman and didn't come home for most of the time. Eventhough he was like me, always honest about his feelings and who he is, I didn't agree the way he was hurting the mother of his child. Naturally his parents didn't approve his extra marital relationship.

Today, I heard that he finally got married with his "other woman".
Today, I am very proud of him.

He married the love of his life. He, unlike me, have found his soulmate. Someone that he is willing to give his life for. He gave up everything he has, including his own family, to be with her. For a person like George, it is a very nobel act. I admire him for having the courage to stand up and fight for what he believes. He had risked everything for her. Not only limited to him, I am also very proud of his wife. Her courage to walk through the blizzard and hurricane up till the minute she walked through the aisle, was courages.

Not many will agree with me being proud of them but not many will agree also with the unfairness they had to experience. How his parents asked the priest not to wed them at the last minute in church when the ceremony was about to start. And how no one from his family came. Not even his sister whom he had always supported all these years when she had cheated on her husband. He was always there for her, especially during bad times. As much as you dissapproved his choice, she ought to be there for him. They were very close.

Who gave the right for anyone to control someone elses life. Who gave parents the right to control their children's life. Faith is in God's hand. If you are meant to be, you are meant to be. Others can only postpone. They deserves as much happyness as any other person. They might have started it wrongly, but they deserve to have the chance for a right and happy ending.

George, I am very proud of you. Be always grateful that God has given you a chance to be happy and in love. Appreciate every minute of it as it should be worth all the sacrifice you made. But then again, if it is for love it won't feel like a sacrifice but only good. And never regret as it was your choice. You took this path with every responsibility that goes with it. If you can walk again, you can have everything again. Remember dear, you have not lost everything, it's just placed on hold until you are ready.
Have a wonderful life...

Thursday, February 8, 2007

the secret


Do you want to fulfill your most ambitious dream? If so, self-help film producer and author Rhonda Byrne advises you to learn “The Secret.” Follow the law of attraction, Byrne says, because everything that happens to you – good or bad – you attract to yourself. "The Secret” is selling fast, but Newsweek‘s Jerry Adler wonders if it isn’t just “the same old stuff” marketed in a new way.
One spring day towards the end of 2004, Rhonda Byrne discovered a secret - the secret laws and principles of the universe.
Almost immediately her life was transformed, as she began to put into practice what she had learned. It seemed to Rhonda that almost no-one knew the things that she had discovered, even though the concepts could be found in almost every religion and field of human endeavour throughout history. And in that moment her greatest wish, and mission, was to share this knowledge with the world.
Rhonda began to see that her entire life - everything she had ever done - had been quietly and steadily moving her towards the most perfect place for her to be able to fulfil her wish. And to fulfil it on the grandest possible scale! She had gone from working as a producer at the Nine Network in Melbourne, Australia, to starting her own television production company, Prime Time Productions, in 1994. And after ten years of creating internationally successful shows such as 'The World's Greatest Commercials', 'Great Escapes', 'Marry Me', and 'Sensing Murder', Rhonda was ready for something new. She wanted to take Prime Time Productions in a different direction; in a direction that fulfilled people rather than just entertained them. And on that spring day in 2004, when a small, old book called The Science of Getting Rich was put into her hands, and Rhonda's whole life suddenly pulled into spectacular focus, she knew exactly what her mission was to become. She was going to take this knowledge to the world. She was going to make a movie to carry joy to every corner of the Earth. And so the great journey that was The Secret began. In early 2005, when The Secret was simply a name and a (momentous) vision, Prime Time Productions was made up of Rhonda, Producer Paul Harrington, and Director Drew Heriot. Paul, who had worked with Rhonda at Prime Time Productions virtually since its beginning, and Drew, who had directed several projects for the company as well, became, with Rhonda, the foundation for The Secret team.
For eight weeks Rhonda intensively taught everything she had learned to Paul and Drew. In two short months she had studied the great leaders from the past, read hundreds of books, and amassed countless hours of research. Previous to what Rhonda had thought, she discovered there were people out there alive who were aware of this information. Actually, there were lots of them, and they were some of the world's greatest living scientists, philosophers, and authors. In every part of the world, different fragments of The Secret were being offered, to anyone that would listen. All that was needed was to pull all of the pieces together...
One of Rhonda's initial intentions for the creation of the show was that Prime Time Productions would use The Secret to make The Secret... that it would be an effortless, joyful journey as they attracted everything and everyone that was needed to fulfil the vision. And right when the company was ready to begin production, as if by magic, the perfect people to make The Secret began to appear.
Suddenly the office was filled with people, all working to complete the most ambitious project any of them had ever worked on. And without fail, every person required on the team, materialized exactly when they were needed: Glenda Bell, Production Manager extraordinaire, Marc Goldenfein, a talented young Producer and Director, genius editors Damien Corboy and Daniel Kerr, extraordinary graphic artists James Armstrong, Shamus Hoare, Andy Lewis, and Nic George, post production co-ordinator Emma Franz, the youthful and eager production assistants Skye Byrne and Leni Mex, and literally hundreds of others. And without exception, every single person was taught The Secret, and together worked in total joy as they worked for the joy of billions.
The day Prime Time Productions arrived in the United States to film the living masters of The Secret, they only had one interview lined up. But they brought with them an entire crew, and the firm intention that they would film every person they needed for the show. And in a matter of a few weeks, the team filmed fifty-two 'teachers' of The Secret. Wherever the team went, more and more amazing teachers would emerge - great writers, leaders, philosophers, doctors, and scientists. These teachers created the foundation for The Secret.
Today The Secret is the Prime Time benchmark, and the company's firm intention is to produce work that inspires, uplifts, and, most importantly, continues bringing joy to billions. To fulfil this vision, in the future Prime Time Productions will also be working out of the United States, beginning with their offices in Chicago and Los Angeles.
Spreading the word
"A film like this works much better when people hand it off from person to person," says Bob Rainone, president of The Secret, now a company with other projects in the works, including a just-released book and at least one film sequel, due out next year.
"When somebody gets the film from somebody, or somebody recommends it, there's usually a story that goes with it," says Rainone. "It's `I watched it; it helped me in my life.' It gets an endorsement as it's being handed off."
That doesn't happen with most films, generally made for pure entertainment, he says.
"This is an entertaining film," he says, "but it has a much deeper meaning."
Since its April release, "The Secret" has sold more than half a million DVDs and more than 100,000 online views. But producers estimate millions have seen the movie. Compare that to Hollywood blockbusters, and it seems paltry. But in the viral world, and in the budding genre of spiritual cinema, Rainone views it as a success -- and a phenomenon he still considers in its infancy.
That buzz is beginning to spread from niche groups and into the mainstream. CNN's Larry King devoted two episodes to the film in November, and "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" featured it last month. And while the producers have no plans for widescreen cinema release, spontaneous screenings are cropping up around the country -- from intimate dinner parties to large gatherings at churches and community centers. (The producers allow such mass screenings under two conditions: that the film is shown in its entirety and at no charge.)
So just what is this big secret stirring so much commotion?
Rhonda Byrne, as Australian filmmaker whose story begins the movie, says its principles are tucked in the words of the greatest thinkers, writers and leaders throughout time -- Plato, Albert Einstein and Rev. Martin Luther King Jr., among them.
It's the law of attraction. The power of positive thinking.
Like a magnet, the film says, the thoughts and images held in one's mind determine what is attracted to them and, ultimately, the quality of life they live. Go anxiously through the day with a negative loop of thoughts in your mind, anticipating bad things will happen, and they will. Approach that same day with positive thoughts, anticipating good things, and they'll be drawn to you.
Keeping the faith.
It's a philosophy the 25 teachers in the film say they have seen applied successfully to all aspects of life -- finances, career, health and relationships.
"Deep down, every single person knows this. Every person knows, deep down, life is not meant to be hard," says Byrne, who came upon "the secret" after the string of misfortune she describes in the opening. In September 2004, she began reading a century-old book called "The Science of Getting Rich" and continued her studies from there.
In fact, she says she used the secret to make "The Secret." After a string of failed projects, her accountant reported her company was weeks from going broke. But Byrne was determined to launch the film project. Not knowing how she would cobble the resources for what would be a $3 million endeavor, she says she and her crew focused daily on the end result and held an unwavering faith the film would be made.
Byrne says the resources drew to her -- the finances, the participants, even the distribution method -- and the film was completed by January 2006.
It might sound like hocus-pocus to some, says Mike Dooley, one of the film's speakers. "But these principles, these laws of the universe -- some would call it quantum physics -- are as predictable as gravity," says Dooley, an author and international speaker who owns an inspirational Web site and retail business, Totally Unique Thoughts (www.tut.com). "There's no society on Earth that doesn't talk about the benefits of visualization and positive thinking," he says. It's a powerful, if controversial concept, considering we have tens of thousands of thoughts each day, says author Hale Dwoskin. Those thoughts, he says, literally create our daily existence. "Most people are living life as victims -- victims to life, victims to their inner landscape," says Dwoskin, who has taught his Sedona Method for 30 years. (www.Sedona.com). "But you don't have to be a victim. " Thinking negative thoughts about mounting debt or a dead-end job, these teachers say, will only ensure more debt and more years of unfulfilling work. The antidote is to visualize what it would look, feel and be like to have checks come in the mail or to have your dream job -- and to believe with absolute faith these things are headed your way.
Copyright © 2007, Chicago Tribune

alot of "oh, wow" moments

This is a copy of my msn horoscope..it's so strange how everything is so "what I need to hear". I have a dream to form this foundation that will advocate "empowering people to believe that they can be anything they want to be". I didn't know what's stopping me until today. I am stopping myself as I didn't believe in myself enough that I can do it while I know that I actually have no reason to "can't". I want to do this and I will do it, as I want people to experience the joy of life that I am fortunate to feel.
I know that I can do it and I will be successful in doing it. Besides me as the living proof, my goal is to gather all inspiring people from all over the world (Hide Nakata, Sugiharto, Bam Aquino, Tamara Melon, Oprah, Veronica Colondam, etc.), to spread the positive vibe and inspire. I believe that positive will attract positive, and who doesn't want to live a positive life in a positive world.
And I believe this dream will also come true. Amien.
"Ain't no mountain high enough"
The horoscope said "action"..and I did action on a request from a concern colleague about our friends that was unfortunate to have to experienced the flood disaster. Their homes destroyed and belongings gone. I wasn't sure whether the company will be generous enough to give donation or compensation for their misfortune. The company that I work for is known to be stingy and heartless. So, I went in to my boss' room and explain the whole situation. He asked me to calculate the suitable amount of compensation and proposed it to regional. Within not even 5 minutes it was approved. The amount was not much (not even close to what they had lost) but enough to at least help them get through this disaster. Therefore, now more than ever, I believe that we should never say can't when we haven't tried. If our "niat" is for a good caused, there will always be a way. When it's meant to be, it's meant to be. No one can ever block you from getting or achieving. One can only postpone.

Monday, February 5, 2007

a copy of my horoscope reading's today


Yes, what should I do after this? Honestly, I have no clue. Here I'm hoping to be able to inspire people, empower people to believe that they can be what they want to be. And hey, just one question from a horoscope column, left me dumbstrucked, jaw dropped, blankspot with no answer to where my next destiny will be. What do I want? It's not like I'm out of dreams to follow, I'm just uncertain. And yes, my work has been occupying my mind alot - more to 90% of my tiny brain. It has been my top priority ever since business been hyperactively growing and I want to be part of the "boom". But I can't also deny the fact that I'm a bit on the bored side of life. I really need to pause for awhile and figure out which dream I want to persue to make it come true. I need to lose weight and go shopping in order to crack this horrible task. PAUSE. Until we PLAY again.

goodbye my lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me.Remember us and all we used to be.
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.



What I still can't understand is why we didn't make it. We were almost there. Compatible in many ways. The first person I was vulgarly honest to. The first person I was ready to let myself go, sacrafice to take a chance in love. I was fooled but not foolish.

Sunday, February 4, 2007

Unveiling Qur’anic Dress Code


I found this interesting letter written by Mustayeen Ahmed Khan published in Newsweek's December 25, 2006/January 1, 2007. It printed this…

ONE ERROR STANDS OUT PROMINENTLY in what is otherwise a very rational essay by Denis MacShane ("No Problem With the Veil," Oct.30). "You can hunt high and low in the Qur'an, they tell me," he writes, "and find no dress code." And the same view is repeated in the picture caption: "Dress code: The Qur'an says nothing about it." Indeed, the full burqa and the part veil, niquab, are not mentioned in the Qur'an and I believe that they represent, more or less, culture and tradition. However, the Qur'an does enjoin a dress code that is modest, not at all provocative and can, of course, be practiced without its extreme form of the full burqa or even the part veil. "Tell the believing men to lower their gaze and be modest…And tell the believing women to lower their gaze and be modest, and to display of their adornment only that which is apparent, and to draw their veils over their bosoms, and not to reveal their adornment save to their own" (Qur'an: 24: 30-31).

A lot has been mis-interpreted (in Qur'an) – you have to read and understand beyond what is written.
Well, I still stand to what I believe...religion is very personal, it's between you and God. It does not and will not involve anybody else. So, why do people get involve in something that doesn't or can't or won't involved them at all. Today, in life and after life. Shouldn't they be introspecting themselves rather than interrogating and false finding in other peoples life and believes???

Thoughts on Mind


"A closed mind is a dying mind"

- EDNA FERBER


"My mind is a world in itself, which I have peopled with my own creations"

- LADY CAROLINE LAMB


"It is in our minds that we live much of our life"

- IVY COMPTON-BURNETT


"The mind is always fooled by the heart"

- LA ROCHEFOUCAULD


"It is not enough to have a good mind;One must use it well"

- DESCARTES


"Your mind is yours and can be used only be you"

- B.C. FORBES

200,000 homeless in Jakarta floods


POSTED: 5:02 a.m. EST, February 4, 2007


JAKARTA, Indonesia (AP) -- Flooding that has killed at least nine people and forced about 200,000 from their homes in Indonesia's capital showed no sign of abating Sunday, as overflowing rivers from four days of unceasing rain sent muddy water gushing into homes and shops across the city.

The government dispatched medical teams on rubber rafts into the worst-hit districts amid fears that disease may spread among residents living in squalid conditions with limited access to clean drinking water. "Jakarta is now on the highest alert level," said Sihar Simanjuntak, an official monitoring the water levels of the many rivers that crisscross the city of 12 million people. (See photo gallery of the flooding)

Incessant rain over Jakarta and hills to its south from Thursday triggered the city's worst floods in recent memory, highlighting the country's infrastructure problems as it tries to attract badly needed foreign investment. Waters reaching 4 meters (13 feet) high in places have inundated more than 20,000 homes, school and hospitals in poor and wealthy districts alike, forcing authorities to cut off electricity and water supplies and paralyzing transport networks. Dr. Rustam Pakaya, from the health ministry's crisis center, said nine people in Jakarta and surrounding towns have died as of Sunday afternoon, mostly either by drowning or electrocution. He said that about 200,000 had been made homeless, many of whom are staying with friends or family on higher ground at mosques and government agencies. Some are holding out on the second floors of their homes, refusing to be relocated by soldiers in rubber dinghies, officials said. "We fear that diarrhea and dysentery may break out, as well as illnesses spread by rats," Pakaya said. "People must be careful not to drink dirty water." In some districts, residents reported that waters receded slightly Sunday, but in others fresh flooding occurred as heavy rains over the southern hills in Puncak caused rivers to swell across the city. Yusnizar, a 53-year-old living in housing estate on Jakarta's western outskirts, said some 1,000 houses were awash with one-meter high muddy water. "Fortunately, people here are helping each other," said Yusnizar, who goes by a single name.
Indonesia's meteorological agency is forecasting rain for the next two weeks. Environment Minister Racmat Witoelar blamed poor urban planning for the disaster. "Authorities hand out (building permits) even though they clearly violate environmental impact studies," The Jakarta Post newspaper quoted him as saying. Jakarta Governor Sutiyoso, who was criticized when massive floods struck the city five years ago, blamed widespread deforestation in Puncak, saying it had destroyed water catchment areas. Seasonal downpours cause dozens of landslides and flash floods each year in Indonesia, a sprawling archipelago of 17,000 islands, where millions of people live in mountainous areas or near fertile plains. Jakarta is regularly struck with floods, though not on the scale as in recent days. Dozens of slum areas near rivers are washed out each year. Residents either refuse or are too poor to vacate the districts.




Note from me:
Jakarta paralized. Not only the city but people's lives, my life. When these kind of disasters happends, you then realises that you are not as independent as you think you are. Disconnected from the outside world, no phone line both mobile and land line, electricity, internet on and off...you feel lost. Especially with 24 hours constant news update on how the flooding has gotten worse by the hour and still a week of the worse to go. Depressing. I went to Ranch Market this afternoon and bought gourmet food and snacks for my family to munch at home, but when I reached home and found out that thousands of people who's houses had been flooded were starving due to the short of food supplies...I felt bad. I regretted for having bought gourmet while other people were suffering. We should've bought food for those who needed it the most, especially the one's who'd lost their homes. 20 people have died so far from this disaster and I'm still home blogging in my home, safe and healthy. This is wrong, I should do something..I should help. Can I? What can I do? Just now I stopped blogging and asked my husband how we can help? how can we send food? where to send? - he said it's difficult to even reach those area's. But that's not good enough...just because it's hard to reach, doesn't mean we have to give up and not help. If it was me stranded there with no food, I want people not to give up to help me. It's just not right. Are there alot of people like me? Confused, scared but actually wanting to help? If yes, it's scary..it mean's we are short of help. This is not good at all.